La Tahzan

"Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah, hati menjadi tenang"

IMY~

Yesterday,

When I was waiting for the bus,

There was an old man who really caught my attention,

The way he sat,

The way he dressed up,

The way he wore his spectacle,

Even the way he read the newspaper,

Made me keep looking at him without him realizing it,

I don’t know why,

But, I just couldn’t avoid my eyes from him.

Then,

The bus came,

I got on the bus,

And once again,

I turned and looked at him,

Maybe it was the first and the last time I met him,

I looked,

Looked,

And looked

Until he disappeared from my sights.

I wasn’t sure why I couldn’t avoid myself from looking at him just now,

What’s so special about that man?

I kept thinking,

Thinking,

Thinking,

And finally I found the answer.

Yes,

He looked like him.

I myself couldn’t believe of what I saw.

But that’s the truth.

He reminded me of him.

I miss you Abah.

SMS~

Today, my little princess text me on the phone,

"Chu jiji bila nak balik kakak rindu"

and I replied,

"Chu jiji pun rindu kakak. Nanti chu jiji habis school chu jiji balik ok. Chu jiji sayang kakak dengan adik tau"

she replied,

"Kakak tunggu chu jiji balik kakak pun sayang chu jiji juga"

and I replied again,

"Sekolah chu jiji jauh. tunggu chu jiji ok sayang. nanti chu jiji balik. cuma lambat sikit saja"

and here, I'm still waiting for her reply.

Yes, I miss you kakak. I keep calling and try to talk to you everyday but you refuses. Kakak marah chu jiji ye sebab chu jiji tinggal kakak. Sabar ok sayang. I'll be back to you by the end of this year. Kita play games, kita pi jalan sama-sama lagi ye sayang.


Not to forget, I miss adik, wafi, iman, mama and other family too! I love you all!

Distance may do us part, but all of you are so close in my heart.

Bbq and Mismatch Party~

The bbq party was held last week on Sunday.

We really had so much fun!

Foods were also delightful.

Everyone enjoyed the party.

We dressed in colorful clothes and different styles.

We ate a lot!

We played games together.

We sang songs.

We laughed.

We exchanged gifts.

It was a great, exciting yet wonderful memory!

Many thanks to Jo, Jan, Erika and Lyn for coming and brightened our day :)

our band called "pasti johan"
(dayane, denish, mahfodz and me)

with our beloved lecturer, Erica :)

Jan and Jo
(they are great in playing musical instruments)

thanks Nija for the lovely present!

lots of love from me to you ;)

It's the first day of Easter Holiday. It would be great if I can meet my loved one or fly back to Malaysia to meet my family. But I guess it will be happen only in my dream. huhuhu. Ok2, think that I better stop now. If not, maybe I'll end up by talking unnecessary things here.

"Happy Easter" to everyone who celebrates Easter :)

~Two Is Better Than One~

~Smile~

"smile though your heart in aching,
smile though your heart is breaking"

but tell me, can you really smile when your heart is aching? can you really smile when your heart is breaking? can you really smile when your heart is crying? is it possible to hide everything that you feel inside and pretend as if everything is okay and claim that you are strong enough to put on a brave face and smile, smile and smile. never stop smiling even the truth deep down inside, the pain that you feel is hurting you?

tell me, is that all worth it?

yes, why give pressure to yourself and let yourself suffer with what you feel? isn't it easy if you just swallow the pain, the feelings and remove all the unwanted things that lingering in your mind form your memory?

but, would it be easy as I said just now? how i wish i can do that.

p/s: tomorrow is my first day school visit for this semester. i was sent to East Brisbane Primary School. Wish me luck people!

~Change~

Even though sometimes we don't like the changes, but we can't stop them from changing.

So, does it mean that we have to adapt to all the changes??